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The Water must free me

It called me there. Like one other voice has done before. So calming, so trusting. I had nothing to lose now. Nothing, but to go to it. 

I was not afraid now. 

I entered the water. Slowly, but reassuringly.  Submerging  deeper and deeper into it. So cold it felt.  Enveloping me from toe to head, encasing me in a silence I have longed to hear.  Cascading and caressing over every bone and every piece of flesh of my body. I could not scream. I could not cry any more. I am angry no more.  The water will free me. The water must free me.

 I did not give consent to my data being trapped his secret decoy phone.  I did not give  consent to  giving my identity away. He writes about consent of data, protection of anonimity and an end to secrecy of data?   What utter fools we are!

the hypocrisy  and words kill me every day and will do, for decades hence. Forced to hear their words.  I hear them every day.  I cannot be free or find peace.. The enlightenment belongs only to them 

"Go back to the way you were before"  they said

"They want to help you" they lied 

It was an almighty jolt that awoke me. I don't know from where it had come,  but it had shook me like a rag doll. Merciless and unapologetic its forte. 

It was still raining outside. 

A decade of retreat into melancholic, traumatic enraged  thoughts. A  new decade of dying to look forward to now. 

"Where will you go?" asked the angry voice. 

I don't know. I replied. 

I need to escape and be free of their words. 

The water must free me.

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